IM SO FUCKING BLACKKKKKKK !! HOW TO BECOME WHITER ? OMGGGG ! FUCKING BLACKKKKK T.T

Training today. Off form today. Cause leg still quite pain. But still ok. I got knocked when scrimmage. Th impact was so hard la seriously. 0.0 My heart very pain, machiam cnt breathe ! -.- & i got blue black on my thigh liao. Today, best la, me & wani do 70 push ups altogether. zzz ! My stamina got better alr :D Hehe. After training, went NP long john & eat. Then go other place with them & went back home. Sadly, I was locked outside my house. No key t go in. Everyone busy working, on course, school. Walao. Sian. Then bo bian, sit at 624 sleep. cb. I so black alr, still sleep there like bangala. (& pls dun make fun of me, i very pissed off) zzz ! Th thought of being black, i really don't want go training anymore. It will take ages for me t whiten back. Fuck man. Sunblock lotion no use. My skin now very pain. Soon going sunburn liao. Damn pissed off with my colour now. Tmd. zzz ! Then, 6.36pm then went back home. i waited 2hr 36mins lor. Walao. best laaa. th longest time i've waited in my entire life zzz ! I'm damn sticky. I sweat & put sunblock lotion. Fucking sticky ! bth ! After bathing, now use comp liao. I just looked back at my photo. I so white, now like bangala. Fuck la. zzz ! I don't want go training cause i don't wanna be blacks. But i wanna go training cause of th people there, they are so niceeee (: Sian. Whitening cream got use ? :(